If You Really Knew Me
Here it goes. If you really knew me....
You'd know that I over stress to the point where I make myself sick. I have a hard time letting things go, and just moving forward. You'd know that I spend a lot of time with my head in the clouds. Almost to a fault. Sometimes I'd rather live in my dream world than spend my time in reality. You'd know I worry about my future constantly. I often doubt my abilities of creating the future that I want to have. You'd know I can't sleep if I don't have something to hug. Like a pillow or cat. You'd know I can be very judgmental towards myself and others. This is something I am working hard to change. You'd know that I hold onto a lot of insignificant items because I can't bear letting them go. You'd know I love the simple things, yet get caught up in the complicated. You'd know that I am a terrible procrastinator. I have no motivation to get things done early and when I wait until the last minute my work is no where near as good as it could be. You'd know that I can be really emotional about things that shouldn't be emotional. I almost always cry in movies. To even further illustrate this point I once cried at the Aquarium while watching the dolphin show. Another time while watching the Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders show I cried when the girls found out the made the team. When there are appropriate times to cry I don't shed a tear. You'd know that when ordering sandwiches I almost always choose one with avocado on it. You'd know I am not a morning person. You'd know that I cringe at the sound of metal touching metal, or metal touching teeth. You'd know that I am really shy, and extremely awkward in social settings. It takes me a while to relax and really get to know people. (This is making my new situation a little difficult.) You'd know I live for my family and friends and wouldn't be anything without them.