If You Really Knew Me

Honesty is really important to me. While I love grandiose ideas and stories, honest ones  make me appreciate more. In blogging, I often gravitate towards those who "tell it like it is", or share parts of their lives that aren't entirely "perfect" or "extraordinary". Blogging is a such a great thing. We can choose what parts of our lives to share with the world, and which to keep to ourselves. Usually we choose to share those parts that are beautiful and happy, and that is OK. I will be the first to admit that I am probably not as cool in real life as I make myself out to be. I have read a couple "If You Really Knew Me" posts around the blogging community and I love them, so I thought I would do one as well.

Here it goes. If you really knew me....
You'd know that I over stress to the point where I make myself sick. I have a hard time letting things go, and just moving forward. You'd know that I spend a lot of time with my head in the clouds. Almost to a fault. Sometimes I'd rather live in my dream world than spend my time in reality. You'd know I worry about my future constantly. I often doubt my abilities of creating the future that I want to have. You'd know I can't sleep if I don't have something to hug. Like a pillow or cat. You'd know I can be very judgmental towards myself and others. This is something I am working hard to change.  You'd know that I hold onto a lot of insignificant items because I can't bear letting them go. You'd know I love the simple things, yet get caught up in the complicated. You'd know that I am a terrible procrastinator. I have no motivation to get things done early and when I wait until the last minute my work is no where near as good as it could be. You'd know that I can be really emotional about things that shouldn't be emotional. I almost always cry in movies. To even further illustrate this point I once cried at the Aquarium while watching the dolphin show. Another time while watching the Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders show I cried when the girls found out the made the team. When there are appropriate times to cry I don't shed a tear. You'd know that when ordering sandwiches I almost always choose one with avocado on it. You'd know I am not a morning person. You'd know that I cringe at the sound of metal touching metal, or metal touching teeth. You'd know that I am really shy, and extremely awkward in social settings. It takes me a while to relax and really get to know people. (This is making my new situation a little difficult.) You'd know I live for my family and friends and wouldn't be anything without them.



  1. I really love these posts. I like the extra honesty and bluntness of them. I'm with you on the avocado sandwiches - they're brilliant.
    Lovely post!

  2. I'm the same way when it comes to blogs. I like the people who are entirely themselves. Look, none of us have perfect lives. Why not just get it out there and say "I'm normal" rather than go on for days about having the top notch family life? I have a habit of hanging on to sentimental things myself.. I really should stop that.

    Awesome post!

  3. So funny - because I just wrote you an email apologizing for being so honest and I come on your blog and the first sentence is "honesty is important to me" we are destined to become lifelong friends!

    I nodded my head at nearly EVERY "if you knew me" comment. The only two things we aren't the same on is the "avocado sandwiches" - I am SUPER food fussy and only eat what I know and like. The other is the procrastinator comment. Not to say I haven't had my share of late nights finishing something when I had every opportunity to get it done weeks (sometimes months) earlier. I am normally pretty good in this department. My part in this where I am bad is I over think things to the point a project that should be simple can take me weeks because I am constantly changing my mind (this links to my portion of nothing ever being good enough and me judging myself extremely hard. I BALLED when I received an A- in one of my courses because that meant I wasn't going to get my perfect 4.0 I was going for. All my friends and family though I was crazy. I'm talking balling for days and saying how worthless I was!)

    Just wanted to say, I am honored to share my blog button on your site and am definitely your newest reader right back at you =)

  4. Lots of that sounds familiar. Sounds like if I
    "really knew you" we'd be a lot a like.

  5. This is such a great post Carli! I'm the same as Jana - I think if we "really knew" each other we'd be pretty similar! It is much easier to make oneself seem cool on a blog than in real life. In reality, I am an extremely awkward person, who like you needs time to relax with new people. I like that you need something to cuddle to fall asleep, and avocado - so gosh darn good!! :P

    Thanks for sharing :) This is a really cool post! Rhi xx

    The Wildest of Dreams

  6. I just found your blog and this post is really great! It really needs to take some courage to tell people about your 'negative' sides. None of us is perfect and everybody has flaws. It looks like we have a lot in common, almost as if I knew you (except for the advocado, I hate advocado or I just never had a good meal with advocado in it. xD) Sorry if this sounds creepy, but I promise I'm not!